I'm still going to have my ritual this Sunday. part 2 of 3 of the death and grieving ritual.
I've contacted a therapist and am waiting for an e-mail. I will call next week to follow up.
The subject matter of the last few weeks has gotten really heavy and a few days ago I started to feel overwhelmed. I set aside the two books I was working in, writing memoirs and sexual anorexia, and began reading Don't Call me Mother. I'm doing the same thing with this as with the other memoir. I'm underlining things that trigger memories. I'll journal about it later when I'm done with the book.
Watership Down will be next on my list. Something totally unrelated to what I'm doing in this blog.
That feeling of being overwhelmed and not having faith that I can work my way through this, was a warning. I need to take a few days to breathe and then I can return to working through this trauma and memory.
I'll report after the ritual as well, at least to mark that I've done it. Adding anything that might be new and revolutionary. But for a few days I'll let my mind rest from the constant dredging of memories.
The first of February I'll celebrate Imbolc and start working through the different bad job experiences.
I have a good ritual or two for that.
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