Xanax sucks

So I went for my checkup and blood work review yesterday. We decided to try a couple of psych drugs to see how it would help my anxiety.  She prescribed Xanax for panic attacks and to help me sleep when my mind was racing for hours at night. I tried one last night and it sucked.

About a half hour after taking it I felt this zap in my head, like bees buzzing really loudly or an electric shock. My brain or consciousness actually shifted to hyper aware.  I've been watching a lot of ghost stories so I was like either something/ghost tried to jump into me or that was the Xanax kicking in. This morning I felt really heavy and every muscle in my body ached, my pinched nerve was acting up horribly with my arm tingling constantly. It felt like I was drunk. It finally wore off after I had lunch. I don't think I'll be taking another one of those even if the panic gets really bad. I haven't had one for a year so I might be fine. Sleeping pills it is.

I just have this problem sometimes when I get stuck on a bad memory, and my brain will play it over and over for hours at night. I can't sleep. My heart rate goes us and sometimes I get chest pains or physically ill. That's why she prescribed it. I'd rather just take a sleeping pill than that Xanax stuff. I don't have a hangover from sleeping pills.

I took the half dose of the prozac she prescribed for me and so far I just feel a little dull, like I'm kinda surrounded by water. My brain is still a little manic but my body has slowed down. I was actually slurring a bit this morning and my reaction times are off. I hope that was just the Xanax withdrawal but we'll see. I'm going to do as prescribed for the next 6 weeks and we'll see how it turns out.

I'm remembering that scene in The Simpsons when Bart was put on ritalin. He was staring at this fly on the bus transfixed by the movement of it waxing it's wings with it's hind legs. Everything felt like it was slo-mo for him. It's not as bad as that but It does feel a bit like being in a sluggish bubble.

She's got me on the lowest dose Prozac, and I'm taking a half dose for the first week. Then a full dose the next 5 weeks. I'll see her again in January to check in and see if we need to change or adjust.