Good thing I was Ahead

This month has not produced any study progress but life progress has been good.

My depression has lifted, the cold is gone and I'm putting together my shop. I've got the area cleared and will be putting the furniture in place this weekend. I went to a glass shop yesterday and got enough to do my first project. I'm really hyper about getting started.

I've been consciously telling the negative voice in my head to shut up. "Have a plan B. Don't get too happy cause it'll hurt more WHEN you fail."

I've been allowing myself to feel my emotions rather than judging them. I was so happy working on glass designs and getting supplies I was manic.

Sex was on last night!  Yahoo!

Also doing a lot of cooking and cleaning that is way overdue. In a really good place right now.

I felt like I was on the edge yesterday, taking the leap of faith across the gulf. I'm getting to a place where I don't plan ahead as much. I used to obsessively plan everything and then talk my way out of things because so much could go wrong and I never felt ready. I'd get stuck in my planning/research phase.

I'm breaking out of it and trying to figure out what flying feels like. I think I had it yesterday. I still fill up today but not manic anymore. Happy and peaceful.

On the homefront--Bri figured out how to unscrew the child-proof gate. She doesn't have the strength to unhook the red spring latch so she found out if she unscrews the pressure plastic washer on the side, it opens the gate by relieving the pressure. Damnit! She's only three. Mad skills like that shouldn't be developing already.